One Day at a Time...

As I've said many, many, times before this phase of our lives is really, due to lack of a better adjective, odd. By odd I mean we are married, but have no kids. We are out of college, but we Chris is still in law school. We aren't "old" but we definitely aren't college kids. It's just weird.

So I often times find myself putting the cart in front of the horse. If it was up to me I'd have our entire life mapped out on a sequential timeline and strategically placed on our refrigerator door. Control freak much? I find comfort in knowing the future. I like the reassurance that we have goals & I like the feeling it gives me when I succeed.

This phase of our life doesn't allow me to do that. Although I think I know where we will be in a year, I don't put too much faith in that. I mean, we changed where Chris was going to attend law school AT LEAST 3 times before he settled on SMU, so who's to say we won't do the same when he's offered a job?!?

I'd love to just sit down and plan out our entire lives on a calendar and submit it to God for "final review." He must really be chuckling as I write this. Sometimes my need for control overwhelms my submission to God. I forget that HE is in charge, not me. And the plans He has for me are far greater than anything I could come up with.

I pray that God gives me an open heart. I pray that God breaks down my plans and replaces them with his own. I pray that he break down the guard in my heart.

&&& I love my husband because I feel like he is unknowingly leading me closer to Christ.